Sometimes I wonder?

Why did God create us? Is it because he was lonely in heaven? Because I always wonder, why he made so many of us, or why when Adam and Eve were created, they were given the ability to reproduce..humm and then from doing Science in school, and learning about the human body, and how complex everything is, I mean God is a genius!.....And why do we have feelings and senses? and a conscious?! Why do we judge people on their outer appearance? If somebody nose too big, we doh like them, or if they hav "cokey eye" we doh wanna be with them and I am guilty in a way because being a girl in school, especially secondary school, yuh know we used to snicker at the not so nice looking children, or if they didn't have a brand name sneakers or something, and that was really mean, I wish I could rewind to those days, because not everyone could afford things, although I couldn't afford the brands myself, but my mom still bought them for me, because I told her I didn't wanna be teased and that I wouldn't fit in because it was a private school so their were some "richy bitches" hummm....I feel so bad about teasing those girls and If we see someone sweaty and dirty, and looking like they hadn't showered in days, we instantly say that the person is a "piper" or a "vagrant", we never stop to think, that maybe the person was stranded somewhere, or they were kidnapped or something. I don't even know why all of this is popping in my mind at this hour, when I should be in the kitchen helping them old woman clean mango, and "shut-tine" [i dunno if i spell it right lol] for Divali tomorrow, hmmmmm weird eh, lol..

I Feel.......Pretty and witty and bright!! ^_^

Today I feel.. well not pretty and witty and bright, but I needed a title! lol kidding, but I just got ready for lessons, and felt so beautiful, not externally alone, internally also.. and I left home happy, listening to my music an ting, and just feeling at peace, I dunno if is how my step-father didn't come for the past two weeks..... but it could be part of the reason! And even though I get pissed when boys or men, suite or call me some kinda name like "dougss" or something but I didn't really get vex, or cuss them I was just normal, because sometimes you never know if the same people who doing that could be the people to help you out, when something bad happens! Some man tried to theif my ipod look-a-like {My Mp4 Lol}, and a dude who always "suiting" meh frigging hold down d man! I would have just stood up and be shocked, all the mouth I have eh! lol but God was with me man! well after the "bandit" ran away I thanked the boy, but you know he wanted your girl's phone number, but I told him I didn't have a phone, Oh Oh so sorry to lie :( but I really not feeling to talk to anymore boys I talking to enough as it is, Wheey I making myself sound like a player lol I mean some is friends Lol! Imagine dis ugly girl picking up all dese dudes hummmm I mean jerks ......lmao joking ;-)

Creature Feature [ i copyin ice!]

Well I have some pretty good friends...so I'm taking Ice God's idea! Ok so time to introduce, the first girl in secondary school, I had a cuss-out with, I hated her, she hated me first though, because she didn't like how I was SO bold, and well bitchy! lol but then when the teacher realised that we didn't like each she put us to sit together, and from there when she got to know me, and I got to know her, we became the best of friends! and we were inseperable in school! and we're done with High School, but still lime like old days, because we live close to eachother, about five minutes apart! and the Girl Is ^~~~***GINA***~~~^!!!!!! ^_^ I'm proud to call her my friend!! I could call her any time of the day, and she'll help me with any problem!she is my BFL [bitch for life], this girl is my Maid of Honour, and all my children God-Mother! She even gets a lil jealous if I go out with friends lol..but really since we've been
friends, we have never had a quarrel or anything, just coolness all the time!

Sup?

I hate that word, and I myself use it to tell my friends on msn Hi! lolz hmmm so how has life been going thus far? it's been going quite good actually, because in order for me to solve my problem, I got an idea from another friend, get somebody [well one of my friends] who the boy cah resist, and then let her break his heart instead! So I got this friend who is a Man Hater lolz, so she'll go along with it.... well enough about jerks,[i.e. boys] these days I'm just chilling with my friends, and living life to the fullest! An what else is new? hum hum hum nothing really, I'm just Loving Life!

And the award for the best liar goes to......Mr.Hussain

Damn people, I really can't understand what's going on? He is still talking to me cool as if nothing happend! I can't believe it!!!!! But damnnnnn the boy could lie!!! he says I'm the only one he wants to be with, ha! when he said that, I was laughing like an evil witch in my mind, thinking yes you fool you'll regret it one day! hahahahaha lol. I was sitting watching him drink his coffee in rituals, and all sorts of things just ran through my mind, and I was thinking of how much I wanted to just get up and strangle him, and take that same coffee and pour it on his "you know nah, d same ting he wanna use to hurt meh" but then I remembered that, I have to play it cool. But the thing is we talk like 3 times for the day, so he knows when something's up, I was talking to him in my sarcastic bitchy voice, and only saying "yea" or "uh-huh"....so then he said "something smells fishy", so "I said well see if the neighbour cooking fish. lol ... so then I knew, he was picking up my vybe from hearing my voice, so I said nothing darling [gawwd I hadda he call him da still] I'm just Pms-ing, he said "well ok den."


But I know I may seem to be harsh, but this is the only way I know how to deal with a problem like this, my dumb conscience is getting in the way!! You know sometimes when you watch movies, you see someone with a problem, and their trying to figure out their problem the best way they can? and you see An angel talking on one side, and a little devil on the other? this is the time me for to listen to the little devil, because I'll be one less girl to be hurt by a dumb-ass, so I'm going to try my best to hurt him, with all the girls in mind, who have been fooled by a boy or man!!!to all the mothers who get, or getting horn as well, PETER PAY FOR PAUL, SO NOW PAUL PAYING FOR ALL!! I just hope that I don't get hurt in the process of hurting him...........NAH that wouldn't happen man, I'm a strong girl! ;-)

*Sigh* I feel stupiddddd

Right about now, I'm really hurt. I shouldn't be, because its a stupid thing, My two very good Friends, Gina and the one who had dengue fever, Shazard [who is better btw], kept something from me, because they knew it would hurt..........and to tell you the truth it really really is hurting So Bad, I don't even know how to start to explain this, it's just so.... arghh! ok, I love my two friends with all my heart and I know they want whats best for me, but now I really wish that they had kept it to theirself. Okay now I know I said I wasn't ready for a relationship, but up out of nowhere comes this dude [shazard's friend] and he just seemed so different, and I was starting to fall for his crap, but one night when Shaz was liming with him, he was telling someone else, that the only reason he wants to form a relationship with me, is so that he can take my virginity, and then leave me after, well hummmmm that really hurt, because if thats all he wanted he is a jerk, BUT HE WAS NEVER GONNA GET IT!!! because I'm not easy, but still I mean Oh gossssssssssshhhhhhhhh! is that all going through boys minds???!!!! I feel so, i dunno, i nah feeling to find a word in the dictionary...... and they both knew since last week, and I could sense something was wrong because when I was talking to G, I could see something in eyes, that just wanted to tell me something, But they told me act like I don't know, but that is like soooooo hard for me to do, I just wanna cuss out dat mother fucker right now! and I really don't know how he have "d belly" to call me still, after saying or thinking of doing that, thats why when he called lastnight and this morning I said I'm studying, but I know I'm gonna crack sooner or later, because that asshole calls about 3 times for the day, I just don't know, I better tell him I'm gay or something lol, i still hav humor in the midst of it lmao, that wouldn't be good neither, that might just make the fellow even more happy lmfao ...no but seriously, I need to know what to do, I was thinking of making him fall in love, like deeply in love, with my personality [trust me that is very easy to do] and then STOMP ON HIS DIRTY LITTLE HEART!!! and make him suffer! and get "Tabanka" SHUX man I hate You Mr.Hussain with all my heart I hope you marry a very pretty wife, who gives you your 'farm' that you always talk about, and then,, when she make 25 chirren fuh yuh ass, she horn yuh, and lefff yuh ass with all 25 chirren to see about!! yuh mudda c***** I really am sorry for my beautiful language but right now I can't censor my blog.