I'm was letting go..

I almost let go, I felt like I just couldn't take life anymore, my problems had me bound, depression weighed me down, But my friends God's mercy kept me close so I wouldn't let go....{this is quoted from a song, but it relates to me} Friends, enemies pray for my family and I to be happy, There is is a situation going on in my home..it's too personal to post, but I have really hit a breaking point, and I'm trying to put the pieces together, so that I can live my life........... And God All I have to say is sorry for almost slipping away, and not believing you are there..but then sometimes again, I wonder why God? Why my family? What did we ever do to you? God I'm testing my faith...Somewhere in the bible you said knock and the door will be opened..God I'm challenging you to solve this problem,So Now I'm knocking on your door, not knocking pounding mercilessly, because I need you lord, I need you lord right now...You said also ask and it shall be Given...NOW I'm not asking I'm demanding..... that you work it out.