Afraid...

I'm really afraid, that my mother will leave leave me in this world, to fend for myself. Yesterday she was feeling dizzy, and complaining of pains throughout her body. She said it could be her blood pressure, but to be sure we took her to the doctor.... and the doctor said that her blood pressure was indeed high, and that her blood sugar was also high. So now my mother has Diabetes. The whole day yesterday, i just researched it to make that she could live with the disease. But I'm also afraid, because my father had it, and now she has it. She said she'll carry me for a test, because I have been experiencing some of the symptoms, while researching, I saw that anyone at any age can be diagnosed with diabetes, so now I just have to pray that everything goes well. But this morning I woke feeling so happy, and this is a first, cause I'm not a morning person, I have also stop hating my step-father for what he has done, I really don't like to remember, so a next time I'll fill you in, So maybe because I released my hatred, I feel so light, despite my frighteness....(is that a word "frightentess", I'll have to check).