Why can't I Breathe?

Today went like most days, meaning same schedule, but i felt so weird today I can't even explain it. My mind was searching for god knows what. I couldn't even speak today, I felt like I was choking and I don't even know why. My friends picked up my strange vibe, without hearing the sound of my voice, as we were chatting online as usual.
I couldn't even write anything on my blog this morning, I just stared aimlessly at the keyboard, even right now as I type it's 12:58am in the morning, and I still find myself lost for words, I feel as though I can't breathe.... My neck really hurts from the tension, of my home life, and my exams...Could that be the cause? I don't even think so.
I normally call up my best friend at nine(for the free calls after 9) and I just didn't even bother, instead, I sat in my gallery and looked at the stars for hours, but after a while I had to come inside, cause my mom wanted to lock up. And right now the only thing am I doing is studying, but not speaking.... and I feel a heavy pressure on my heart and today, I cried for no reason. I really hope that this feeling goes away..... I really don't like it.

POEM

Alone
I am all alone in despair
No one's with me, No one Cares.
The only sound I hear is the,
Palpitation of my heart..........

The dreadful sound of silence,
Burns my ears.....,
I can't take it anymore,
Is anyone there??

No, No one's there, to ease the pain,
They don't want to be with me,
for what will they gain??
A girl filled with broken dreams,
And a sorrowful heart,
Whose attitude stinks,
Like deplorable art..

by: Haley Joe