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I really dont't know how to feel.... my friend is in love with me, byt the thing is I don't feel the same way, now that its out in the open, it looks as though, I don't even have him as a friend anymore, this is really hurting me yo! here's the chat log, I'm - M.J. and he's (U) 3VAC (U)




M.J o.O ok




M.J. so u not tellin me 8-)



(U) 3VAC (U) lol nope not until u at least guess or something




M.J. umm wht is abt giv me a hint



M.J. lol





(U) 3VAC (U) if i give u a hint


u wud fine it out



trust me



M.J. umm is it abt me alone, or u and i



(U) 3VAC (U) both of us


M.J. Hmmm u think u love me or sumtin?



(U) 3VAC (U) yah



M.J. u srs ? :S




(U) 3VAC (U) yh




M.J. Hmmm ok then, i dont feel the same way tho .... i'm srry... :(


(U) 3VAC (U) yeah




(U) 3VAC (U) Its ok




M.J. ok *-)




(U) 3VAC (U) u dont even like me fully so i know love is way out of the question
but thats ok lol i accustomed to it



M.J. ok then dont make it sound so bad


M.J. lol


M.J i care abt u tho



(U) 3VAC (U) yeah i know




M.J. i gone i too sick




ok here's later down in d night.

(U)3V@C(U) least i got the hard part over
see... i had this thing right and i used to say good things dont happen to
ppl like me and u prolly was a really good thing that happened but that was
all in my mind...

M.J. na man u shudnt make me sound so gud, i cud b a rel bitch at times, especially
if i'm in a relationship, i might jus stress u out

(U)3V@C(U) but this jus hurts on a diff level

M.J. ok, well
M.J. i dont hav a prob tryin
M.J. cuz
M.J. i think ur cool
M.J. an straight forward

(U)3V@C(U) Nah nah 4get it...i not guilting anyone into anything..

M.J. i not feelin guilty
M.J. u gotta take risks at times, its me too, i kinda built this thing in my mind that all boys r bad
M.J. cauz i only get d biggest A$es

(U)3V@C(U) Hey ur smart , beautiful and u love god youll make a successful life and live
long go for someone who has those qualities im jus an obstacle...

M.J. hey stop downing urself like that, u need to hav a lil more confidence in urself dude

(U)3V@C(U) Dont worry ill be fine

M.J. ok, so like i cud only talk to u on msn only, no face to face interaction, or phone or n e
thing no moe hanging out??

(U)3V@C(U) nah girl right now i cryin like a lil baby...it sad eh..

M.J. idk y u makin me CRy now dang

(U)3V@C(U) Nah girl i strong i jus listening to some music and i good

M.J. Hmm ok well i'm not

(U)3V@C(U) Dont study it girl
I tell u before i accustommed to it

M.J. i cant but study it......... wen i consider ppl my frens i feel hurt wen they're hurt
M.J. help*

(U)3V@C(U) jus block meh on msn
(U)3V@C(U) and well call it square

M.J. y shud i???? ur my fren.
M.J. ok if u wanna b that way well fine, but that really hurt, its like u dont even
wanna b my fren but ok
M.J. i will then if it makes u feel better

(U)3V@C(U) i wanna b ur fren but it hurts me bad
(U)3V@C(U) knowin u right there and i cant do nothin
(U)3V@C(U) Ok then dont block me

M.J. ok, i wont
M.J. but
M.J. nvm

M.J. u dere?

(U)3V@C(U) yeah

M.J. well i gone dere, i'm really srry u wont hav to deal with me again ,
i try not to come in ur way to make it harder
i'll**

(U)3V@C(U) Nah its not like that
(U)3V@C(U) we cool no worries


M.J. if u say so
M.J. i gone bye



IDK Y I'M FEELIN SO BAD, I VERY WELL KNOW THINGS AREN'T GONNA BE THE SAME, BETWEEN ME AND MY FRIEND, ITS SO SAD I LOST MY FRIEND :(