Shux so long i haven't been on this blog, it's not even in my most visted websites anymore, well i got good-ish grades, in Cx.c. 6 two's, 1 three, a four and a five, btw the 4 and the five is accounts and maths.... darn it! so i hav to do over maths, F**k accounts i hated that sub anyway! but my life has been good good, a lot of going out, and partying [not wild lol] and then some crap happens, my rel close "hoss" in the hospital, he have dengue fever, and he just have me so worried, and I was ignoring his calls, because we had a stupid disagreement, and I was not in the mood to speak to him.... and little did I know that he was calling me Tuesday, to tell me that he was in the hospital, I let all my dumb PMS-ing problems take over me, and I was in bitch mode, so today, I called him, because his hi5 looked like there was no activity, and he is always on that I said "word" was d scene?? he tell me girl i in the hospital , that is why i was calling you, I felt so low, I just started crying like a dumb girl, and he was like there normal, telling me that everything would be okay, but now i just can't think of losing my friend, god cah let dat happen, we done had plans to go movie towne next saturday, bcuz das d only free saturday, God doh let meh fren dead nah plzzzzzzz, he's a really good dude.

RESULTS

ok tomorrow are the results for cxc, i don't even know what time i have to be there for........ so i'll just go whenever i wake up...ummm nah thats not a good idea.. i might end being too late! i feel so nervous, i don't have butterflies, i have freakin teradactles, and to top it off my mom told me to give her a shock, well i just hope it's a positive one.......

but before i go, i just wanna light a candle for icegod's uncle.....Lord i pray you grant Ice's uncle eternal rest, and be with Ice and his family at this time, i pray you give him comfort, cause losing a loved is hard....

Amen

Piczzzz

I took these yesterday. my view from home.

huh..

well my step-father no longer lives with us, but he passes in the evening time, to see my sis, so things alright for now, although my bro, and my other boy cousins wanna kick his ass, but they are waiting for a golden opportunity...lol, but on a brighter note today is my Granny's b'day, well yesterday, cuz its like 1:51 am right now, anyways she turned 83, so there was just a little get together with family, and close friends, it was nice..






And today made my mom buy a camera for me, hehehehehe because someone stole my big sister's camera, and my uncle's wife has one....but that would be a waste of time...... I was so frickin happy, because of all the crap lately... she bought a SonyDSC-S730 its a nice camera, its light weight, compact, and the picture quality is excellent, I love it, I have no complains, I didn't even think that I would get one this soon..so now I was just uploading the pics from the little get together, and now i have an urgent meeting with my pillow, lol.........

Why God?

Hmmm yesterday, when I really needed you the most Lord, huhh I really can't take this anymore. Yesterday, my step-father, was strangling my mother, and was asking her, if she had another man. My mother kept telling him no.... but his guilty conscience was bothering him, because, he has another woman, but "he claims" he doesn't....Now tell me, could we be so fucking stupid?? you will not come home for a night and two days, and say the tyre was flat, and there was nothing he could do because he didn't have a spare, but! you come home fresh, like yuh now done bathe, huuuhh, well people who know me, will know that I will not stand there and that happening to my mother... I just ran into the kitchen to pick up something sharp, well who would have thought that the "chinese chopper" would be on the counter... well me, shaking with rage, just went up into his face and said, leave my so and so mother alone, he say if I don't keep out, I will share the same faith as my mom, well that got me more riled up, I said bring it on, yuh bush coolie, I 'don't fraid you' well god knows I was a little scared eh, because suppose he went to pick up something, but I know the Holy spirit wouldn't have let me down...... but when he was cussing me, my lil sis went with her brave self,and said leave my mommy and my sister alone! THE JACKASS pulled my sister and started beating her, and hard to, well I just snatched her, and pushed her into her bedroom, although she was real crying, but if she had stayed he might have hit her more, I slapped him, he tried to slap me but didn't succeed, because my mom held back his hand

And you know what's the amazing part, he thought my mom had a man because, she had to go to the hospital later that evening to get her medicine! huhhhhh and then after all of that, he finally admitted that he had in fact, been seeing another woman, and I just got so mad yesterday, and the only friend that was available was Linkin Park, because, I really don't wanna tell my friends that, because, I just don't wanna burden them.... I called my big sister this morning and let out everything, she got so mad, and wished she lived closer, but she left me with some good words, but that man left my lil sis scarred for life, lastnight she cried, and was only saying,I lost my daddy to a woman, and she was saying I want my daddy back, She went on her KNEES, and prayed and asked god that her parents don't get a divorce....... well just writing that, makes my heart so full, and my eyes full of water, because such a young delegate soul, has to feel so much hurt..... Huhhh I really tried to be strong with her lastnight eh, but I broke down, not for him, but for the condition he left my baby girl in, god why? why my lil sis have to feel so hurt? I wish I could take away all her pain, and inflict it on myself, no little child should feel so down she started to talk about how life was, I don't want her dwelling on the past, I want her to think about how tomorrow will be......... this isn't right, and my mom why her too? my mom is such a devoted mother and wife, and the thing is my mom so numb, she ain't even cry, the lady wouldn't cry for nothing,,,,,,,,,,huh

I'm just normal, and formal lol.... today was cool, my nephew was trying to walk oh gosh that looked so cute!, what else?? hmmm nothing really just some pretty good days, I will miss them, they're leaving Wednesday! but I guess it's good, because I would eventually miss my kids too, lol especially if I had a 1year old kid..

Huh...

Aunty Haley "rel bun"... lol today was extra fun! I played with the kids all day, and my mom's friend came with her kids [triplet girls] so wow... I really couldn't tell them apart, I just called them sweetie, Po Po,or Darling..lol. The triplets are 5 so it was like a pre-school gone wild today. And then the neighbour sent her son... who is 6 so like wow that's like 7 kiddies wooww... And smart me gave all those children ice-cream, bad idea.... very bad, but fun... they all had a sugar rush, so they were screaming and constantly giggling.... hehehe, after that, I forgot again, and gave them soft drink,,,huh... I think I did that on purpose, hehehehe because they have extra fun, not so?! If they sugar high?! A'ight I sounding like a bad Aunty.... after that NO MORE SUGAR was given! they cooled down in a half an hour, so it was all good, So now, all who had to go home gone, and the ones here, are fast asleep... like little angels!