Crappy Memories

Yesterday I found my old dairy, and while I was going through it, I was like wow, I was a little punk! Because in the diary I was just writing about school and being teased and shit and my transformation from geek to chic lol. And if anyone was to meet me now, they wouldn't think I was a little punk... Now I watch those little form 1's - 3's, and they way they talk about boys, it makes me sick, They'll be like how he's so nice, He's so fine...lol.. when you pass by, you only hear He, He and he,..... And from reading my diary I was just like "frigging" them! When I had my first bf, in my diary, every time I wrote his name there was a heart around his name... Oh wow, I had no idea I was so 'sad' as we trini's would say.
And here's a paragraph from the diary dated: Jul/8/2006- Oh my god I saw {J}-[there was a heart around his name] today in movie towne, we went to see "Superman" it was great!! he put his strong arms around me when I was feeling cold,:) and even after the movie, we stayed seated, cuddling and junk! He's the best boyfriend in the whole entire universe!! And I love him so much!!After the movie we went by the balcony, hugging eachother, and exchanging soft kisses..........Then it was time for me leave, He was like,, babe, do you have to leave now... and gave me the warmest hug.. so warm, when I went in the car I was still feeling his embrace....and I was still smelling his cologne, which was not good at all!! I stayed far from my aunt!
Alright that's enough, of that crap!!!!! Don't laugh!! lol.. I forgot how girly I was... There's more but, that piece was kinda funny, well for me at least.
But the same {J}, was an asshole, we were together, on and off for 3 years, but the last time we broke up, I made sure it was for good! he didn't respect my wishes, of waiting till I'm married, he was only asking for "the thing" lol, I couldn't take it anymore, I told him I couldn't deal with this relationship, and then he kept calling me up, and asking for a third chance, He even threatened to kill himself, but that did not change my decision. I really don't know, but testosterone takes over boy's head. It's like their 'you know what' is their second brain!
Right now I'm still reading through my very funny diary... lol , If I come across another funny line, I'll share it again.