Happy 2009!

This is my first post for 2009, and that kinda sucks because, I've totally taken my blog out of my activities. But reason for that, was because I was going through a very trying time with my family. And in the midst of that, I lost my aunt [R.I.P.] she died from a stroke, and my very close friend lost his mom, although his mom wasn't my family, I still felt sad and hurt, because my dear friend was overwhelmed with different emotions at the time, and there was nothing I could really do but pray. Surprisingly enough I was his shoulder to cry on, and I always wondered to myself, why do my friends always lean on me for emotional support? His response was, your love for God just leads me to you I guess... and he knew what I was facing, and he told me, I'm so strong, and I smile in the midst of it..... I just sorta chuckled that remark off, because at the back of my head I know that it's all pretend, but really, they don't know how many nights I cried myself to sleep, and begged God to kill me, my mom & my sis, so that we would be forever free from this cruel world. Since he told me that, I found a loop-hole, I started thinking since my friends think I'm so strong, and my faith is strong, I'll always be there and help them in anyway possible, because I realised when I would be there for them, an praying for, I would slowly forget about mine, and then, the smile that was fake suddenly became real, and I ended up finding real happiness, because was once my friends got over theirs I just felt a joy.

Then a commandent from the bible came to mind, "Love thy neighbour, as you love yourself." So I really thought about it....and then it dawned on me, if I really show my friends love, and treat people in general the way I wanna be treated then, I'll be happy in return, and it did happen in that way..... Hmmm well besides all those other things, good things are there as well! I'm going to broadcasting school to do Photography/Broadcasting & television production! I'm really excited... I start this new venture next month, Oh boy I'll be famous jus now, you'll see ;) lol
But my family, on both sides [mom&dad] says that I can't be successful in this career but to all those who wanna see me fall, I WILL SHOW THEM IN THE END!